Or am I covering up my true self?
I always wonder how much acting I am doing for others. I do try not to let some things rise to the top but I am apparently not very good at putting on my mask. I think my eyes are projecting things that I am schooling my face to hide.
Who am I ?? Really?
And I've been wondering about some of the dreams I have been having lately. Do I have an alter-ego? Is there another me running around who is younger and more willing to let someone in? I had the most amazing dream the other night, where I recognized the person as being me . . . but I didn't recognize the circumstances and actions. And, though I feel like I have what I call "deja vu" type dreams, they usually don't work in the reverse. These latest dreams couldn't really be me if the person looks younger and is with a younger person (i.e. male) . . . and no, I am not referring to my older woman-younger man scenario of my recent debacle with the Egyptian husband. The man appearing in my dreams was not like him. It felt to me like we were closer to the same age . . . but I wasn't some old wrinkly-pruned up cougar (well, that I am not anyway even if that's what my age might say).
Very confusing . . . to recognize a female in a dream as me but to be puzzled about what/how she/I happened to be there.
'Tis a puzzlement.
Alter-ego???
Who am I??
I always wonder how much acting I am doing for others. I do try not to let some things rise to the top but I am apparently not very good at putting on my mask. I think my eyes are projecting things that I am schooling my face to hide.
Who am I ?? Really?
And I've been wondering about some of the dreams I have been having lately. Do I have an alter-ego? Is there another me running around who is younger and more willing to let someone in? I had the most amazing dream the other night, where I recognized the person as being me . . . but I didn't recognize the circumstances and actions. And, though I feel like I have what I call "deja vu" type dreams, they usually don't work in the reverse. These latest dreams couldn't really be me if the person looks younger and is with a younger person (i.e. male) . . . and no, I am not referring to my older woman-younger man scenario of my recent debacle with the Egyptian husband. The man appearing in my dreams was not like him. It felt to me like we were closer to the same age . . . but I wasn't some old wrinkly-pruned up cougar (well, that I am not anyway even if that's what my age might say).
Very confusing . . . to recognize a female in a dream as me but to be puzzled about what/how she/I happened to be there.
'Tis a puzzlement.
Alter-ego???
Who am I??
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